"Bart, hold still."
The select few who had the privilege of knowing Impulse's secret
identity as Bart Allen also knew that asking him to hold still was
about as likely as winning an arm wrestling match with Superman. And
there were quite a few members in the Young Justice ranks who would
have picked that as an easier alternative.
"Bart!" she shouted again.
He managed to flit his attention back and stared, slack-jawed eyes
wide behind the gold lenses of his goggles. For Bart it was the long,
confused pause that came when a pretty girl in a costume was pointing
an arrow at his head (which happened often enough for a distinction),
but in reality it was only a fraction of a second that Impulse was not
zipping around.
The response of Cissie King-Jones was immediate and automatic. It was
one fluid moment to nock, aim, extend, and release the arrow from its
alignment. Despite her speed, Bart could have dodged, gone for pizza,
and come back before the arrow hit; but she wasn't aiming at Bart. She
was aiming at the tangerine on his head and the poor fruit didn't
stand a chance.
It struck the exact center, probably even the center of one of the
small indentations that let the fruit breathe. The shot was so dead on
that not even a trickle of pulp or juice escaped where the arrow now
lodged it against the target.
In the bleachers, two people clapped. Robin's was the polite
controlled clap that meant he probably had some kind of detonation
device in the palms of his gloves that would go off if he hit it hard
enough. The other was Cassie's, who was making up for the rest of them
with whoops and cheers.
"Cissie," Bart sidestepped, completely ignoring the arrow that was
still trembling from impact. "Why'd I have to be the one with the
fruit on my head?"
"Because Superboy doesn't want to risk mussing up his hair," Cassie
Sandsmark shouted from her position on the bleachers. She was the only
one of the motley Young Justice group of six that viewed it as an
entertainment event. Of course the others couldn't tell what she was
cheering for more, her best friend's perfect shot or the interesting
demonstration going on behind her back.
Cissie relaxed her stance even as her gaze was still transfixed on the
target. She smirked a little, saying, "And don't think I didn't notice
you mimicking bunny ears on me, Kon."
Kon-El, the not-quite-yet-legendary Superboy, floated down from behind
her, looking rather smug and not at all contrite. "Hey I was just
giving him something to concentrate on. Really, you should be thanking
me."
In Cissie's opinion, Bart was spending more time than his usual
attention span allowed, but she guessed it was due to the northward
wind blowing her skirt. Although, now that she thought about it, bunny
ears were much more likely to capture Impulse's interest. Which didn't
exclude Superboy and his TK having some hand in—or up, as the case may
be—the attention getting wind.
Already finished with thinking about other things that distracted him
from the usual distractions, Bart turned his attention back to them
with renewed vigor. "Hey, it doesn't take any concentration to sit
still and let someone use you as a target! It's just not very
interesting."
"You act as if it's normal that your friends shoot stuff at you," joked Kon.
"Oh yeah," Bart nodded earnestly, "Max does it aaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllll
the time. Gets really boring."
With the exception of Cissie, the rest of the group blinked. But by
then Bart had already sped over to the bleachers and was dangling his
feet over them.
Secret took their moment of quiet to speak up. "But why a tangerine?"
"The Imp ate the apples," Kon smirked, "that's why he had to be the target."
"You said the watermelon was too heavy!" Bart protested. "I didn't
want to balance another watermelon on my head."
When Secret looked like she still was confused (and not simply because
of Bart), Robin sighed and turned to explain. "It's taken from the
Swedish legend of William Tell. He was a political prisoner who had to
successfully shoot an apple off his son's head or else they would both
be executed. So in the spirit of developing trust in our team
Arrowette suggested this exercise."
"Oh," said Secret, who probably still didn't get it but was blushing
too hard from Robin's attention to want to ask further.
"Is that why I had to hold the fruit?" Bart asked, "I thought it was
because Superboy was afraid of the arrows and Cissie—"
"I pegged you for a Robin Hood type anyway," Kon chuckled while
clamping a gloved hand over Bart's mouth.
"That's because all archers are associated with Robin Hood," Cissie
said, drawing another arrow from her quiver and nocking it. She didn't
even have to recalibrate as she sent it flying to hit the previous
arrow's shaft dead center. "Archers that end up as flashy, show-offs—"
Which didn't mean she was one, Cissie was just demonstrating how a
'Robin Hood' was landed. Right. "-myths in tights."
"A brooding, mysterious urban legend with a cape," Cassie mused, "I
wonder why you prefer him?"
Simultaneously, the rest of Young Justice glanced at Robin.
"What?"
"Nothing, Rob," Cassie yelped, as Cissie looked like she was going to
start swinging her bow at her best friend.
"I happen to be part Swedish anyway," Cissie remarked. "Or at least I
thought my mom said something about it from my father's side."
"Does that mean you like wearing wooden shoes? Can you talk like the
Swedish Chef?" Bart asked, this time close enough to Cissie and
probably examining her for some kind of tell-tale signs, like she
would carry ABBA lyrics in her back pocket.
"That's Dutch," said Cassie, pinching the bridge of her nose to try
and keep the cosmic headache from descending on her.
"That's bad parenting," Kon said, who had found Impulse had run off
again when he turned his back. "Using your kid for target practice."
Cissie remained uncharacteristically silent at his remark as she
started off to retrieve her arrows. Being the world's second greatest
detective, Robin could see Kon-El had hit a sore spot and followed to
help. Being Cissie's newly dubbed best friend, Cassie shot Kon a look
of death on her behalf.
"But it's okay if you're as good a shot as Arrowette!" Bart grinned,
his previous annoyance at being made to stand still now washing away
into the current hero-worship state he had for her. "Because you don't
have anything to worry about."
"I'd feel safe if she shot an arrow at my head," added Secret. But
nobody wanted to point out the logical difficulties of even getting an
apple to hold on her gaseous form, much less the social practices of
just how weird it was to say something like that.
Kon got the hint. "Okay, so next time I'll point out this little trust
exercise at Cadmus. I'm sure it'd go over great at the company picnics
instead of me catching Guardian in a mile high free-fall."
"Don't mind him," Robin said as he pulled the tangerine from where it
was lodged in the arrow. His movements were methodical in picking the
slips of paper and hay from the bruise mark, like he was a doctor
undergoing surgery. "Sometimes we forget that our words can speak
louder than our actions, or at least they can affect us more." Before
Cissie knew it, Robin had the slices in his hand and was holding them
out to her. "But for what it's worth, I'm glad you're on the team. And
I'm glad I still get to be the only one with the Robin handle."
Cissie didn't mention that she liked William Tell's legend more
because it was practical. Where Robin Hood's hubris had him sneaking
off to archery competitions, Tell's hand was forced to commit great
deeds. Maybe in some sick, teenage angst backdrop motivation she
identified with him. Besides the arrow shooting thing anyway.
She liked William Tell because he had a backup arrow. All the ability
in the world but he didn't let overconfidence keep him from being
cautious, because you couldn't make mistakes when the stakes were that
high.
'What was the second arrow for?' asked the captor.
'To kill you with,' William Tell had responded, 'if you ever did
something so horrible as force a father to take the life of his own
child.'
"Thanks," said Cissie. She took a slice from his hand and bit into it,
careful for the juice that spilled out. Out of all peace offerings, it
was good to have those that weren't overly sweet.
Dea-
You don't know me but-
My name is Cissie King-Jones. I don't know why my mother picked that
name for me, but even if it's kind of embarrassing it's what I go by.
She didn't talk about you much since you weren't around. The only
thing I knew for sure about you is that you were a fantastic archer
because Mom always said she wasn't half as good as I could be, and she
never passed up an opportunity to remind me how much of me was because
of her. So I must have gotten some of it from you. I don't know what
else I got, but I was afra-
Cissie never liked her name.
The kids teased her about it, call out to her in sing song the way
that was both her name and wasn't. It was hers because she was
Cissie. But it wasn't because it meant something else, something older
than her, even older than when her mom shoved the mantle of Arrowette
on her shoulders. A derisive remark, an epithet for a coward.
Even though she was the first to raise her hand and the first to cross
the finish line, they kept taunting her. Coward, they said, still so
afraid to lose. She didn't understand why they hated her, because her
mom told her doing the best meant being the best. It was supposed to
make sense that if you were the best everyone loved you, but it just
made them hate her more.
Cissie couldn't stop it though. Ever since birth she had been training
to aim for one goal, one ideal of perfection and to ignore everything
else as extraneous. Being normal got in the way of things, making a
mistake every fifth turn just so she could point it out to the others
didn't work for her. The mistakes were too calculated to count as
mistakes. It was like hitting the second ring away from the bullseye
in the same spot over and over again.
She couldn't try anything less than flawless, so she thought of other
ways to escape. Loopholes her mom left when she instructed her about
heroes (and even the biggest bullies on the playground had a faded
poster of Superman on their walls). So she made herself other
alter-egos, divided into new secret identities to compliment
Arrowette.
It started small at first. From Cissie came Cassie, just one letter in
difference. Cassie's change was that she had a mom not evil enough to
give her such an easily targeted name like Cissie. From there it grew
to an alter ego, the part of Arrowette that made archery quips, the
one who did tumbling routines when simple running would do.
The children that didn't know Cissie loved Cassie. The first girl
"Cassie" met when she rescued her cat from being stuck in a tree
invited her in for cookies.
But by then her mom had already moved onto bigger and better ideas. So
then came Suzie Jones. She was the quiet and obedient one, who
smothered Cassie's joking in the face of her mother's demands and
curtsied when meeting others. Suzie didn't mind the excessive sequins
her mother glued onto her mask and made her use impractical perfume
arrows, instead preferring the gaudy trappings to hide her
hesitations.
For every new occurrence Cissie devised names and meanings to cover
those facets. Carrie was a King and borrowed her mother's rage.
Cecilia took the last name of Prince, glossing over the veneer of
debutantes and tried to keep herself humble. She never took the name
Queen though, it was just something not done.
Cassie. Suzie. Carrie. Cecilia. Chi-chi. Even Ralph had some strange
important meaning that made sense of Cissie's world. The only name
they kept in common was that of Arrowette. And Cissie used it as a
treasure chest to keep safe all the traits she valued. Arrowette was
noble and gracious. Arrowette was clever. Arrowette was more than what
her mother expected of her title.
Arrowette was more than Cissie King-Jones.
My mom. She's a real piece of work, but I'm sure you knew that
about her. Hey, you probably know more about her than I do. Not that
I'm bitter or anyt- She always pushed me to being the best so she
could try and recapture that rush she got in her glory days as Miss
Arrowette.
Psychological transference disorder, they said. Reliving her glory
through me, which lots of parents do, but most parents probably didn't
have a temporary stint as a superhero.
"Your mom is pretty nice when she isn't on a rampage," Cissie remarked
in the darkness of Cassie Sandsmark's room.
Without the light she couldn't see the Superboy posters or the
half-eaten bag of chips tucked under the bed. It was strange to have a
room so normal in comparison to hers, which only sported a few posters
of bands and paperback books.
"Well, you're not too bad after a rampage," Cassie snickered. "Oh god,
I still can't believe you told off the JLA. I mean, not even my mom
was gutsy enough for that, and she told off Wonder Woman before!"
Cissie heard the rustling of Cassie's sleeping bag as the other girl
positioned herself closer so they could talk easier. In the half-light
it was still strange to see that Cassie's natural hair was about as
blonde as her own, if not a little more mussed from wearing a wig and
goggles. She didn't bother to pull out all the tangles in her hair the
way Cissie had done since childhood, preferring to keep it casual. The
small grin on her face came more naturally too.
"I was just a little pissed," Cissie murmured, all of a sudden
embarrassed by the attention but not really. Jeez, she even had the
special poster of him pasted by the door, the one they gave to club
members only.
"Yeah, well, that was some superheroic PMS," Cassie continued to gush,
and Cissie was halfway glad that Arrowette never got enough exposure
for merchandise like the kind that graced her friend's room.
"Can we talk about normal things? You know, hopes, dreams, and
aspiration stuff? Stuff that doesn't involve your massive crush on
Superboy?"
"Oh, sure, right." Cassie nodded, all too amiable and close in the
messy room as she gave Cissie a playful swat. "I'd been
thinking...about our moms."
"Oh god, I was surprised the harbor was still standing after they
finished with each other!"
"I'm sure they're not finished, after all, my mom did let you stay the
night. That's a first for the costumed type friends."
"Maybe she's just afraid you'd break the furniture if S.B. were here?"
Cissie smirked.
"Oh god, Cissie! I can't believe you said that!" Cassie screeched and
buried her head into the pillow. "That's just—"
"I was talking about one of those epic fights that always seem to come
around whenever people meet. Calm down and get your mind out of the
gutter, Cass."
"I'm an aspiring archeologist, thanks. It's my job to dig in dirty places."
Her interested piqued at the sudden turn of normalcy, Cissie turned to
stare at Cassie. "Really?"
"Well, yeah. I know my mom says it's a lot of hard work and pretty
boring, but there's something really cool about connecting with
ancient civilizations."
"Well," at a loss for words, Cissie blushed, "that's cool that you
want to follow in your mom's footsteps."
"What about you?" And suddenly Cassie's attention was all on her as
she leaned over into personal space with an expectant grin. "You going
to become a famous actress? Model? Olympic archer?"
Cissie rolled away and broke her gaze. "Uh, I was figuring more a scientist."
"Forensics? Like the smart side of 'Law and Order'?"
She didn't ask why she wasn't going to follow Bonnie King's footsteps,
she probably already knew the way her mom tore into the other woman.
It was probably what made Cassie such a fast friend, that she
implicitly knew about the unspoken things and left them alone. She had
that strange ability to act like a normal fangirl even as she was
teammates with Superboy, and Cissie hoped on some selfish level that
would rub off on her. So she'd stop thinking of the world in terms of
her mother's goals and things she did in spite of her mother.
"I dunno," Cissie mumbled. "Thought teaching would be nice except the
pay is pathetic."
Cassie's hand was on Cissie's shoulder, pulling her back on her other
side so they could stare eye to eye. It was the best way she could try
and make sure she hadn't hurt Cissie's feelings in the new stages of
their friendship where they were still testing out the waters. "How
about a supermodel scientist? With the looks and the brains to send
all men cowering before your might?"
"I'll leave the might cowering to you, 'Wonder Girl.'" That way Cassie
knew all was forgiven, and she didn't even have to suffer through one
of Cissie teasing about Superboy again.
"We make a great team," Cassie whispered.
"Yeah," Cissie murmured, sleep already closing in from her exhaustion
at the previous week's antics. "Fighting evil and grown up
responsibilities, one person at a time before bedtime."
When Cassie realized Cissie had trailed off into silence she yawned at
her own body succumbing to slumber. "G'night Cissie," she yawned,
"I'll wake you up early for Mom's breakfast."
"Night," Cissie responded. She lay awake and still in the normal
teenage room, soaking up the feeling and letting Cassie's even
breathing lull her to sleep.
Right now I go to the Elias School in western Pennsylvania. At
first I was kind of a charity case for them, being a ward of the state
and all, but I made friends there and now it's like a second home. And
after I won the gold medal at archery in the Olympics they've been
bending over backwards to make me comfortable. It's a pretty nice
place, and I have live-in friends.
It's where I met Doctor Mom-
It's where I met my psychiatrist who helped me figure a lot of
problems out. She always told me I should write out what I wanted to
say if I ever met you, even if I didn't. A dry run for the
unexpected. She said it would be therapeutic or cathartic or some
other technical term she was always using on me. Because apparently
I have unresolved issues that don't involve perfume arrows.
I think you would have liked Marcy Money, my doctor. But then everyone
should have liked her-
The graveyard was a good distance from the Elias School for Girls,
despite the large forest area that would have been ideal. The
foundation members said it would be too morbid to place a resting
place of the dead near a boarding school.
Cissie didn't disagree as she stepped out of the car, with Bonnie King
looming behind her as if to keep her from some kind of outward harm.
"I told Frank no calls," she said offhandedly, trying and failing to
find the words to comfort her daughter in this time. She could only
stand idly by, her hands begging and twitching for a cigarette that
she didn't have because smoking would be disrespectful for the dead.
"Thanks Mom," Cissie whispered.
She didn't move quite yet, preferring to bide her time and sort out
everything that was churning inside her. It took her two hours to get
ready because she couldn't stop the bile from rising in her throat
when she thought about what Marcy looked like under the tarp.
Bonnie had stayed in the doorway and offered to hold her hair. Her
mother had already offered everything within her power to make it go
away, and Cissie was thankful for it. However, she couldn't find the
words to express it, and at a time when mourning was called for she
thought it would be better to hold off for a while. Cissie's throat
was exhausted from the sobbing, and the shame that not all of it was
for Marcy.
"God, I'd kill for a cig," Bonnie hissed under her breath.
Cissie's eyes were blank when she turned back to her mom. "Do you mean that?"
"Oh hell, I didn't..." Bonnie's words dried up in her throat and she
looked away in shame. "God, I must be running a record of ways to
screw up my kid."
Cissie was staring up at the noon sky, trying to avoid looking for a
particular gravestone. It took her a very long time to find something
to tell her mother that wasn't designed to hurt, but she didn't have
much experience for that. Just point, aim, and shoot. Everything else
was extraneous. "The Doc smoked too. She...she was trying to quit."
She took a long, shuddering breath and tried to calm herself. It was
enough right now that she didn't take the opportunity to lash out.
Maybe there was something wrong with her that her first instinct
wasn't to grieve but to hurt. Instead of running to her friends or her
mom, she decided to go out into the woods and stalk two guys with the
intent of reenacting the same crime that haunted her dreams at night.
Her mother was responsible for the impetus to search out problems. She
had trained too long and held the persona of Arrowette too deep to let
it go. It was Bonnie King's fault for burying that responsibility in
her daughter's heart so she couldn't ignore it anymore if it was in
her line of sight. Cissie was taught that heroics were perfunctory,
and despite her friendships in Young Justice at the end of the day it
was a job.
But her mother never taught her to kill, or to desire and sink to
their level of perverse pleasure. In her head she justified the
difference, the scream she remembered from the videotape telling her
the difference. Attempted murderers weren't the type to have
sleepovers with their friends like she was. But bad guys like Jerry
and Rick weren't supposed to second guess, or beg, or value their own
lives the way they devalued hers. They weren't supposed to call bears
Boo-Boo and cry after firing at it.
Somehow Jerry's sobbing over the bear and Marcy's pleas for mercy
blurred together. So when it came to judgment and Cissie could only
view the world as a straight line to the target she wondered which end
of it she was on now.
She would have fired if Superboy didn't catch the arrow. He gave her
the second chance, but unlike William Tell she didn't know what to do
with it.
Bonnie King was lingering on the outskirts of Cissie's personal space.
Well, more like pacing on the boundary line and exhausting herself of
all motherly phrases like cigarette butts. And out of the corner of
her tacky glasses Bonnie was waiting for some kind of sign that her
daughter would give so she could swoop in and try and make things
better.
"I'm going to wait in the car," Cissie announced, taking comfort in
the fact that she sounded just like her mother as she walked away.
I don't know why I'm doing this now really.
Robin, no, Tim Drake was standing in the doorway of her dorm without
his mask.
He had the same abashed expression when they met at the Olympic games,
filled with uncertainty that simply could not be Robin because Robin
was all confidence and perfection. Robin was naturally what Arrowette
was supposed to be. An arrow that always hit the bullseye, no matter
where the shot was fired. A persona that filled a costume and hid all
the small mistakes normal people were made of.
This boy that stood in front of them was just like when he removed his
mask for the first time in front of his teammates as Alvin Draper. It
was a fake name, but a real expression. However, Cissie didn't know
what that looked like because by that time she had already left them
and she only knew that it was important in an off-hand sort of way.
"My dad died."
Stumbling and cry, Greta was the first to react. It was an awkward
rush of limbs that must have been spurred on partly by her own grief.
Far too clumsy for how a former superhero should move, she reached out
and pulled him to her. Not like the embrace of a girl who had had a
crush on him ever since they met (because Cissie had crushed on him
longer than that, with newspaper articles and dreamy sighs...). It was
like someone who had lost the same. My dad died too, Greta was
saying as she buried her solid fingers in the clothes that looked
nothing like red skintight Kevlar vests and clung and cried with him.
Bart stood by the wayside with his hand firmly on Tim's shoulder,
helping to keep him steady. He was the one who brought Tim here on
route from a Teen Titan's mission. Apparently the events that went on
spurred this visit to their old teammates. Cassie didn't come this
time, she was probably tending her wounds and soaking up comfort with
her boyfriend, Kon.
My dad died too.
Cissie shut it off and tried to focus on other things. She still
couldn't get used to Bart's uniform change. Different, but also
familiar because it was worn by the old Kid Flash. It was a kind of
traditional normalcy, or as normal as things got for superheroes. When
she asked about it all she got from him were phrases like "mantle" and
"legacy" that didn't fit him at all.
But that wasn't the most striking change. It was the demeanor Bart had
while standing there, completely still and solemn while Robin crumbled
beside him. It was the fact that Bart Allen was standing still and
waiting that made Cissie realize just how far behind she let herself
fall.
My dad died too.
She didn't feel like she should intrude. Maybe that was the problem.
It felt like it was an intrusion, or a breach of the walls that grew
between them and her. Something that she couldn't cross because she
had long ago forfeited the right and now she was left on the outside.
You can't talk about geography and boy bands all the time when your
best friend is a superhero, can't compare crushes when your first was
on the protégée of Batman or the Flash. And despite the fact that she
had done things unheard of in civilian life, like playing galactic
baseball for the fate of a planet or held a cosmic-altering genie as a
newborn, those things were all in the past now.
What could she say to them now anyway? Bart who had lost Max to the
super-villain, Rival, and was now living as a stray under Jay Garrick.
Greta, who was no longer Secret and no longer borrowed Cissie's old
name, still carried the memory of her father's body falling into
Darkseid's pits. Tim, who was holding back tears even now as he let
himself go in front of them because he saw them as family.
My dad died too.
Cissie said nothing as she walked over to join them. This was her
room, they had come to her, and yet she still felt out of place. She
didn't know if it was welcome or not, but it didn't matter much as she
pulled Bart into her arms, then Greta, then Tim. If they protested she
would let them go, but for now she had nothing to say. She just hoped
they would understand her actions.
I guess it just wanted to try, even though this will never reach
you. I wanted to tell you that I'm doing okay. I have my friends and
I'm closer to my mom than I ever was before. I don't know if you know
about me, or if you'd care if you did know, but I'm pretty happy. And
you should at least know that."
Love
Since-
Your da-
Cissie